I miss you: 7/27/08

I think I saw you somewhere in Yuk Chai before but I wasn't too sure which class were you from.I remembered last year when we need go to SMKDJ to report ourself, your mum parked her car at the back of my dad's car. I also remembered that I saw you in Singapore last year following the school.

January 2008, you joined B.M. tuition and you were sitting infront or erm opposite of me. I think I asked you what school are you in now and before that which school from. You replied me shyly.

Later on I saw you in school and we are quite friends. That day your class just came back from the science lab and it was recess. I called you and told you that Bryan Chin wants your handphone number. You asked me '' He don't have??? '' I nodded. You allowed me to give your number to him. Next day, both of you came up to me when we are in the hall. You said that i gave the wrong number to Bryan. I aplogized to both of you.

In tuition, you seldom finish your homework but I did not tell teacher. You did not even study your sastera. But I don't care. You always put your stuff over my table and I will push it back to yours. Thinking of that, it's quite funny. You was teacher's bodyguard while was his secentary. Sometimes teacher will take both of us as a sample and my friends will say all those stuff.

In school, it is always boring before going to the hall. I once sitting on the cantin bench and kicked your leg when you pass by. You asked me why I kicked your leg in tuition, I said I was bored. Haha. I actually did in purpose. XD.

When I was chatting with my old classmate using the computer, *** say she is coupling with you. I congrats her because in the same time I was also coupling with a guy in my class that likes me since after UPSR.

Few weeks later in tuition, teacher said Hoe Ming was noisy so he changed your place with him. Things go on like this... But sometimes Hoe Ming will might kicked my leg... Well, its ok.

2 weeks after with the boy, I dumped him because he was ANNOYING!!! I hate annoying guyz. But both of you seem to be ok. When teacher gives us hoemwork, you keep looking down the drawer, it looks like you are smsing with her.

Few months later, teacher found that the boys are too noisy, so he wanted the girls to move to the back and guyz infront. And I have no choice so I gotta sit next to you. And it was freaking cold when I sat there.

### that day told me that he likes ***. I can't help him because you were with ***. ### later tell me in tuition that he knows that you were her boyfriend. I pity him.

Then things goes on... On a weekday I forgotten when was it, you told me that you wanted to break up with ***. I was suprised when you say that. You told me that you lost your feeling's to her. You ask me how so I told you the way. You wanted to use my name, and I allowed. I ask how was it going on in tuition. You said both of you broke up. I was suprised.

Then I kind a realize that you always walk pass my class looking inside. I did not ask that much but my friend were talking other craps. I remembered that Wednesday, the most ' craziest' day of my life. It was on 11 of June. I took your lolipop from you. You wanted to see a piece of paper which belongs to me. I wanted to know your crush's name so I said that if you wanna see the paper, you gotta tell me. At 1st you won't and then want the lolipop back. i gave you back then you say you was kidding. Then you finally ask me to check your handphone. You did not tell me when then you went to the toilet. When you came back, you asked me did I see the message, I said I did not. Then I grabbed the phone from your drawer. You say go to contact and press downwards 60 time. That was crazy, I thought. I was quite shock that it was my name. Then I say I don't believe. You ask me to go draft and check. This is what you wrote and I still remember it.

I like my cousin. And the cousin is you. I know you won't believe me but this is true. I like you.

I was seriously shocked. Then I scribble on a piece of paper and ask you. What if I say I like you? You replied. Serious? I said IF. Then he threw back the paper. If only you like me, or not we can couple. Then I say. I really like you. Later on, after we finish our homework, your arm knocked on me. I actually scolded you. Then you emo. Haha. I said sorry you, you only smile.

The next day, you used your friend's handphone to sms me cause your phone is out of money. You ask me to me your girlfriend. I replied you late cuz I was thinking whether to be cuz you are a player and most of my friend hates you. They say you are famous for lan cii but I don't care. I asked my friend but he did not reply. So I gotta make my own discition and I choose to be your girlfriend.

I ate the lolipop you gave me own Sunday. I have no idea why is it sooo sweet until I chocked myself. You sms me and say all the stuff. It's so sweet being with you. You say that you feel like sitting beside me holding my hand. I say maybe on Wednesday. You though that I won't let you hold.

So on that Wednesday, when you came to tuition, I wasn't in a good mood cuz on Monday, Jian Lin came to my class, sat on the table opposite me and talk to Jeremy and Calvin. I heard their conversation. They said that you are using me, and couple with Cherish. Then you used you handphone and ask me, I though you let me hold your hand??? Well, I put my hand down below the table but holding th chair. Then, using the handphone again, you wrote, Put your hand down. I can't hold like this. I did as you say. You hold my hand tightly, and your hand is kind a sweaty. I guess you are nervous. Nevermind, I am also nervous cuz that was my 1st time holding a guy's hand.

You hold my hand every Wednesday. And soon, I have no idea how I get famous. Remembered on 4 of July, I followed my friend just to return her friend's yellow card. Once I went up your class, your classmate was yelling my name. I have no idea who the hell yelled my name. I am not a pop star but I don't know why. That time, my heartbeat was 200 per minute. My heart was yelling to my friend's. " Hurry up!!! " My hand and leg was shiverring. Luckily downstairs nobody heart that yell. I ask my friend who same class with you. He said lots of people calling me, asking me to go in your class. And when I ran down the stairs, I heard a voice calling over me " Mindy!!! Why go back so fast??? " I igored it.

Things go on and on. Couple with you, let me grew bigger, but I loose lots friend. Some of them say since I couple with you, I became lan cii, some of them hate you, so when I was with you some people also hate me. But you said nevermind. As long you are with me, nothing will go wrong.

You everytime will just take my phone and check my stuff. I don't really care. You found that my wallpaper is plain, so u send me a wallpaper which I love it sooo much. ( If you wanna know check my friendster).

On your birthday, which is also Jogathon Day. I call over the phone to congratz you for winning in the race. I asked you where are you. You said you were in out with your friends. I was quite mad cuz you did not ask me out but ask your friendz. I heard you asking your friends that can I go. When you say can, I said that I was just joking. So which means that I did not go.

I got your birthday present on Sunday. I planned to give you on Wednesday, but i jusy can't get it out of my pocket. Haiz... So after tuition, I sms you. I asked you to look for me 2morrow ( which is 10 of July ) in the cantin either before school or during recess. Or not I will give it to other people.

The next day, you did not find me in the school cantin, I though I can give it to my sister. But after recess, you appear in front of my classroom door. I pretend that I did not see you. Then Jeremy Tan called me saying that you are looking for me. I went out and my friends started teasing me again. Haiz... So I gave you what you want and that stupid Bryan Chin is looking what we are doing. But on the same day, at night, you sms me that your brother knew both of us couple. You wanted to break up maybe about 2 weeks. I told you about this before that my mum suspect me... But you still hold my hand in tuition.

You ask me before what should you call me. Darling, Dear or what... I say its up to you but you still want me to make the dicision. But end up you still sometimes call me Dear or Darlin... That was sweet.

On the 23 of July, you appear INSIDE my classroom. I knew it but I did not care cuz there was a test later. So I continue to study. In tuition, I asked you why did you come to look for me, you said you just follow your friends, I said lame. Then you said I come and see you. It was just too sweet. I was freaking cold sittting over there, you asked me to hold your hand tighter. I was shy so I did not do as you say.

I remember once you were holding my hand freaking tight. When time is up, you still won't let go. So I suggest we meet up during house practise. I asked you out like this twice but you did not turn up. I was upset.

After hearing so much craps, you finally broke up with me. If it wasn't I start the conversation, maybe we might still be togather. But it is so not true cuz you were dating your ex!!! I really can't believe it. I have no idea why you did this to me. And the worst thing is I cried!!!! I don;t know why. I did not cry because of you... I... I just have no idea why...

Once my friends knows about it, they comfort me by telling me that it is useless to cry over for a playboy, and you are not the only guy in this world. So now, I call you asshole whenever I see you. I still don't get it, why must I see you everytime I turn my head or just change my view!!! Why????

Just now you did not went for tuition. I was sooo relax. But Naomi shwed me something. Guess what is it, the picture that we hold hand!!! It was in Timothy's handphone. I just can't believe it!!! I asked him to delete it immeidiately for I don't want to see that again.

I really wish I won't see you again...

I miss you

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